The feeling of sadness or displeasure caused by the nonfulfillment of one’s hopes or expectations.
letdown – frustration – chagrin – disillusionment
I haven’t written recently. I’ve been trying my best to maintain positivity and hope that my body would cooperate. Well, it looks like this is not our month. Dr. M never got back with me about my most recent round of testing. I phoned her yesterday, however, I was informed that she is out of the office until Monday. My BBT indicates that I failed to ovulate.
One of my oldest friends sent me a text message last night announcing that she and her husband are pregnant with their first child. She wanted to share this news with me even though she and Rob aren’t telling anyone else. I am truly happy for her but at the same time, her news brought over a wave of sadness through me. I can accept not getting pregnant but I am angry that my body won’t even ovulate.
Today, I am surrounded by my two nieces. They bring me so much joy but at the end of the day, they go home and my house is left with silence and stillness.
Today, I am disappointed and a little sad…