“There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure.”
― Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist
I can hardly believe this appointment with the RE is three days away. I feel like I’ve been waiting lifetime to take this first step. I really wish that Jade could go with me but she cannot as she has to work. The paperwork for the RE is all complete but I am still desperate to know what to expect at this first appointment. I fear they will look at me and say, “Sorry, we can’t help you.” I also worry that there will be an uncomfortable pause once they fully realize that I am a lesbian. This particular practice has treated another lesbian couple I know. I just hope this doctor will be supportive and positive and that I will walk away from this appointment feeling like I am making true progress.
Jade wants a child almost as much as I do but I also get that she isn’t as emotionally invested in this as me. She regularly says she wants a child but she hasn’t been the most engaged in discussions about the process and financial figures. I love Jade more I could ever express, I just wish she would be a little more enthusiastic about this process. I almost feel like I am going through this process as a single woman. I sure hope she comes around soon.